Yummy Yellow!!

So, noting the stress I've been under, in addition to the insomnia and semi-mood-numbness (followed by crying at a Folgers commercial) i've been experiencing some odd food cravings.

At first i though it was the usual "my body is lacking in protein/vitamin__/etc. (like the ham, mayo & peanut butter sandwich i enjoyed a few weeks ago) Then the past few nights i have noticed a trend...

Not necessarily the same foods...but the same COLOR foods!! Weird...who knew you could crave colors?

The particular color craving seems to be yellow. Night before last is was creamed corn (mixed with tuna of all things? actually quite yummy!) Last night it was straight up whole kernel corn (nearly wolfed it down right out of the can) followed by an entire can of yellow cling peaches.

Tonight it was scrambled eggs so full of american cheese that the milk content of the eggs (i always whip milk into my eggs) mellowed the cheese so it was one great big mass of yummy yellow fluff.

So....What exactly does this mean? Well according to ask.com (http://psychology.about.com/od/sensationandperception/a/color_yellow.htm)

The color yellow is Bright (duh!) often described as Cheery or Warm. However it is also so bright that it is considered "fatiguing to the eyes" and if used too much in background (on a wall, a paper or a computer) it can cause vision loss.

This wonderfully cheery color has also been found to cause frustration and anger in people, cause them to lose their temper, and even babies to be more upset and cry more (i.e. BAD nursery color!) However it also increases the metabolism?

So again, what does this mean? Apparently my subconscious has found a way to extend the confusing, stress inducing yet emotionally growth educing things going on in my life....to my plate.

Perhaps i can eat away the Cheery, Warm, Fatiguing, Frustrating, anger inducing portions of my life?....Or i just like corn.....

The Red Queen

~“A slow sort of country” said the Red Queen. “Now here, you see, it takes all the running you can do to keep in the same place. If you want to get somewhere else, you must run at least twice as fast as that!”~ (From "Through the looking glass" by Lewis Carroll

That particular quote has certainly been running as fast as it can through my brain lately. The more i try to stand still and assess the world the around me, the more it seems to shift. And i appear to currently lack the energy and possibly even the ability to run fast enough to change anything, let alone keep things the same.

From one moment to the next, one phone call to the next, one email, one sigh, one breath to the next, it's as though each moment is of the utmost urgency, yet seemingly overwhelmed with a satirical sense of deja vu.

How much longer must this ride go on like this, before i can finally get off and throw up?